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[10 Nov 2008|11:46am] |
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yeah i am extremely bored, so i am writing in this thing. i always hated this tho, cause i suffer from the worst verbal diarreah and sometimes people don't really give 2 shits about what you have to say. hmph. so anyway...texas is great wish nj would send me that damn thing in the mail so i can start working...if not i'm going to have to just get a job doing anything, something stupid even. i might have to see about that when i get back from nj after visiting in december. i am super excited to go up and visit. i can't wait to see everyone. anyway, yeah i can't think of anything else to say really. so yeah, bye. :)
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| life is sweet |
[17 Oct 2008|12:24pm] |
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the talking heads/burning down the house |
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so i am currently living in texas...i know crazy. i haven't used this thing in over a year because myspace has basically taken over everyones lives haha. but yeah i am living in texas with my boo, jesse. hes been so wonderful to me and is everything i have ever wanted. i couldnt be happier. i do however, miss all of my friends...it just sucks not having them be around for all this happy stuff. it just sucks. but besides that i am loving it. we're going to start working out too because i am getting fat being here lol. waiting for my texas license and then i will be able to finally start working at a salon asap. anyway...just a little update. probably more to come.
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| its been a while... |
[25 Jun 2007|08:09pm] |
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ted leo and the phamasists/timorous me |
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i haven't written in this thing in like foreverrrrrr. so much has happened since then, and i actually am a completely different person. i graduated a few days ago, and then i cried for a while the other day when i was cleaning my room, but it felt good. for some reason, the crying was like closing that chapter in my life. there were people and classes i would actually miss. is that so impossible? i guess not.
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| spiffy. |
[15 Aug 2006|04:38pm] |
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i think that life is wonderful.
<3
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| everything is everything. |
[07 Jun 2006|10:49pm] |
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lauren hill/everything is everything |
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everyone thinks they're on a non-stop party, with no idea when the party is going to come to a screeching hault. mine did, i snapped out of it. realized i have priorities. my parents might not be happy with the way i'm going (even though it's a better place then i used to be) but i sure i am. i don't need certain things to get me threw the day. the body addictions, the people and place addictions. i don't need it anymore. i just need to hear the music. everything will get better i know it, i know it. it makes me a stronger person everyday. things are going to get better. i might not be that smart, or pretty or anything but...i know it will get easier. i am blessed with everyday of health and love i get, and i cherish the moments i have with the people who mean most to me. at the end of each day i can look at myself in the mirror and say, "i survived." and i am a better person because of this. because i can keep going. i don't know where or when i will die, but when i do i will know that my life was worth while, even if no one remembers my name. i am at peace with my surroundings. thank god.
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[06 Feb 2005|02:10pm] |
fuck the eagles, fuck the patriots.
i'm not watching the game this year.
suck ass teams.
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| hot child in the city! |
[25 Jan 2005|04:41pm] |
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msi/pussy all night |
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3 reasons why europe is better then here:
1.hot boys with accents.
2.awesome fashion.
3.cheap booze.
thats where i want to be.
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| bored, stole this from tj. |
[03 Jan 2005|03:19pm] |
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Age of first kiss: 6th grade
Number of people you've kissed: hmm..like 12 i think.
French kissing is: awesome
The worst kind of kiss is: when they're trying to kill you with there tounge.
The best kisser you know: hmm jim probaly
The worst kisser you know: haha NICK GORMEN!!!!!
The celebrity you'd like to kiss: karen o, i love her.
Friend you would like to kiss: no one really, i kiss all my friends.
Favorite movie kiss: hm, during like this movie with johnny depp i don't remember what its called but it was about jack the ripper.
Do you kiss on the first date? if the person is hot.
Eyes open or closed? closed
Average number of kisses you get a day: maybe like 1 or 2
Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? nope
The last person you kissed: andrew?
Best placed to be kissed: in the rain.
Have you kissed someone of the same sex? yes.
What about the opposite sex? yes
Do you consider kissing cheating? yes
The longest you've gone without a kiss: like...god maybe a month.
The kiss you regret most is: kissing kyle...i fucked up me and tj's relationship because of it.
Kissing in public is: is best.
Tongue rings are: amazing.
Two girls kissing is: wonderful.
Two guys kissing is: even better then wonderful.
haha whatev.
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| oh yeah? |
[02 Jan 2005|04:02pm] |
there's never any mistletoe.
we don't kiss on the holidays.
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| yeahhh. |
[31 Dec 2004|12:53pm] |
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the dehumidifier humming. |
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to sum up the year:
2004 has been nuts. i did a lot of things, i wouldn't have done in the past. i had a lot of new experiences, and met a lot of new people, most of which i love because they're awesome. i've also gained and lost friends, more lost then gained i think haha, but all in all in the friend department it was a ok. i fell in love...which is still something thats you know, fucking weird. i got over the most terrible ordeal of my past this year, which was a big step for me...i think i'll give myself a little pat on the back for that one. i conqured some of my fears.
all in all, it was a great year. 2004 you will be missed. you know come to think of it i think i wrote a poem like that or something one time, and it was talking about the time me and heather carried that sink half way across town for jims birthday. hmm.
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[28 Dec 2004|05:54pm] |
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modest mouse/the view |
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i have lots of friends who look like jesus,
but that doesn't mean they are.
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| hooray! |
[25 Dec 2004|01:53pm] |
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merry christmas bitches!
more presents tomorrow!
chyeah!
this week has ended beautifuly,
and next week shall be spectacular.
<3
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[22 Dec 2004|04:20pm] |
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the used/lunacy fringe |
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small, simple, safe price.
rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
this is not a small cut
that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
and i am not afraid to die.
i'm not afraid to bleed,
and fuck, and fight.
i want the pain of payment.
what's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts,
much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
would you be my little cut?
would you be my thousand fucks?
and make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
my sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
i'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
love is not like anything,
especially a fucking knife.
<3 love it.
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| your wicked gay but then today i think i'll be hardcore. |
[21 Dec 2004|10:54pm] |
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so right now i'm in the process of making alex's christmas gift, she better like it otherwise shes outta here! i think my fire alarm just went off real fast, maybe we're on fire. hmm. anyway today has been so fucking busy i had a million things to do and i'm still busy, its crazy i've been so busy i didn't even eat dinner. but thats not a big deal, i need to lose weight anyway. yeah so i made everyones gifts, and i have everyones gift i need to get except for britt, and my mom, which im going shopping for like tomorrow with dustin so it'll be cool. and thursday i'm getting my rat, then i'm out with my friend andrew. thats about it but it'll be fun, new rat hooray. i'm taking off thursday cause...oh yeah i have to go get measured for my orthodics, so thats what else i'm doing on thursday, and why i'm taking off so technically my vacation starts tomorrow. hooray, i can sleep till god knows when yay, and stay up late hooray and have sex with girls! yay. so i'm going to go, cause i'm talking to branden, and he's cooler then you. <3
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| i like you. |
[20 Dec 2004|04:24pm] |
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she's a beauty queen.
life lately has been alright. and its cool. moms been being gay lately though but what else is new, i just think shes crazy. oh well. scooters sitting on my shoulder keeping my neck warm and its nice. i think she fell asleep. i love rats, they're so awesome. i'm getting a new one, cause my mom knows this lady whos rat had babies so im getting one. i havent picked out a name yet though, so if you've got any suggestions feel free. shes brown and white, i havent seen her yet but im sure she's wonderful.
and thats that.
i'm excited.
<3333333333333
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| move over that ass is too fat. |
[10 Dec 2004|05:16pm] |
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my mom walking around upstairs. |
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werd to not having anything to do on a friday night!!!! interested? call me. <3
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| *cough* |
[02 Dec 2004|06:01pm] |
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brand new/no seatbelt song |
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you know i'm just remembering how sexual 12 and 13 year old girls are. cause i remember having sleepover parties and someone would always be like "ok lets all make out, just to see what its like." and then next thing you know its like a group orgy. atleast those are the kinds of sleepover parties i went to when i was younger. and if it wasnt that it was like a big huge dramatic fight, and somehow i was always to blame. but i guess that happens a lot since you know everything is my fault. got a problem? call 1-800-blamekelly, and you can blame all your problems are her. i'd be rich. atleast i'd be getting paid to be blamed, i wish. anyway, life is like...eh i hate you kelly *kicks you in the face* but i'm dealing. i don't know how much i'm liking some of my friends right now...they're not really een friends. wanna know what i do everyday? i come home and sit on the computer. i don't really go out anymore because...well my friends are pricks. but whatever you know, its cool. life is life. anyway enough complaining, i have guitar lessons soon. <3
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| boo! |
[30 Jul 2004|02:06pm] |
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dbc/places that you've come to fear the most |
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i'm going away 2day at like 5.
aren't you all going to miss me?
i know.
i don't blame you.
:)
i'll be back...eh sometime next week,
i'll probaly update when i'm at my dads.
i don't really want to go, i wish i had gone
like sooner in the summer,
cause i feel like the end of my summer
is being taken away.
oh well..
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[29 Jul 2004|12:58pm] |
woah.
let's not ever do that again.
kelly you are an idiot.
<3
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